giving it all you've got :)

I got some advice from a friend of mine a while back and i didn't think i'd have the time nor the opportunity to give this advice to someone else.
The thing about relationships is that getting into one, for me has always been the hardest part.

I descibed it once to a friend of mine as jumping off a cliff blind folded, while holding the hand of someone you'd like to survive and live to tell the tale with.

The only thing about it is,..once you land in the water, a metaphor for the world, there are so many forces that push against you. Sometimes you'll be pulled closer together, other times,..further apart.
The only thing to remember is to never let go of the otherr persons hand.
To love them enough for the both of you when he is weak, because he will do the same for you.

Here i was, getting into a relationship that seemed perfect, with the kind of guy that many only dream of. My TW :) Tender warrior as my girlfriends have baptised "The One".
I'm not saying that B is the one. Not even that he's not.
Just that i'm happy where i am and may Gods' will be done.

So, here i was with Tammy. She was telling me all about Tom and how she has no idea why she's in the relationship and how she's checked out of it mentally.

Sitting with her, reminds me of my days with Kelly. Hours spent on the phone, with me telling her i need to get out and with her telling me that i need to grow a pair.

Things only stop working when you stop putting effort into them.
She's always telling me to give it 110% because relationships take work.
Work.
Hmm,.. these conversations are starting to sound strangely reversed.
usually i'm the one giving advice!

Now, i'm listening to Tammy and she sounds so irrational. My goodness. Is that what i sound like as well sometimes?
What in Heavens name came over her?

I didn't know what to say to her.
i didn't have the words.

All i could say is to give it all you've got and all things will work for the good of those who trust in Him.
Giving up is way harder than forgiving.

*sigh*
I wabble.


Love,
        Cinnamon.

Do you love me?

So i've been gathering some tracks of late.
I'm making Ben a mix cd in response to the one he made me :)
It was a really sweet and original idea, and i'm really blessed to have such a thoughtful young man in my life :).

Back to the gathering of tracks,..:)
So,..turns out there are a million and one things i would like to say and this seemingly is the best outlet for the flow of these creative juices but I'm still trying to figure out how to do this.

I'd love to share all the cool ideas i have but then again, this is at the risk of him seeing it too early so,..:) for now i shall keep it a secret.
Still, i really hope he likes whatever i come up with when i'm finally done :)

Serious blogger :)

hehehe...
So,..Ben has been telling me that i should start blogging and well i did try.
I had a whole blog and everything but somehow i must have started with the wrong program because my goodness did wordpress lose me! WHAT!
Pages and things.
But Blogger seems simple enough. i hope it actually is :)
i like that i's bright and orange and white and things :)

Let's see if the computer can be my new notebook :)

Oh well. it's but the beginning.

This blog may not have many deep things, because i don't always have something profound to say, even though i can be a critical thinker.
I'm enjoying just being me for now so,..let's see how it goes,..

Ready, Set,...Blog? :)