easy like a Sunday morning :)

So it's a dull morning here at the Omuom household.
Everyone is still asleep, and by everyone i mean Mr. and Mrs. and Max.
Mel is away sleeping over at a friends for the week. They started off their rendezvous at West gate mall yesterday so that should be fun.

I on the other hand, despite the little internal battles i'm facing, i'm up and dressed. ready to head out to church to sing in the carols concert. Hmm,... I don't recall signing up for this, just the musical but well,.. hali ya maisha?


Plus Trace has really worked hard at this. I might as well lend my support. Do-re-mi-fa-so-la-ti-do....

Plus Spain 2011. is in the works!

Catching up

I haven't blogged for a while. Not because i have nothing to say but simply because well, i have been too tired to write down my thoughts in any kind of way shape or form.
I really think i need a personal assistant and my Jesus would do me the greatest justice by allowing me to have one in the future. Someone to manage my affairs. Oh the thought relaxes my strained and tensed muscles.

This past week was cultural week. the little tid_bits that happened along this past week could fill a book, however, in short. It was stressful and apparently myself and marietta could not plan a free event with no money. Not for lack of trying, btw!

Anyway, so yeah, eventually with the stress, and broken heartedly, we quit the committee, on the afternoon of the Public forum on Wednesday. I'm no quitter and i can bet you marietta isn't one either. We had just both grown weary of barking at the tree expecting it to move, and exerting force on the brick wall, that was obviously going no where!

Moving along swiftly. I bought a book this week.
A book on men. I figured, it was about time this girl read about the psychology of men :)

According to this book, which seems to me to be a pretty well researched book :)
Men require only 3 things of the women they love...
To be respected.
To be needed.
To be appreciated.

According to this book, men will do things they hate, and don't really understand to make the women they love happy, so long as they're 3 needs are fulfilled.

I've finished reading the book, and i picked out some of the things i should change, and top of my list is creating more time for my mister.

Wish me luck with that.

Ready. Set. Go.

O. Cinna

Unneccesary Stress.

Did i ever mention how I have one of the bestest boyfriends in the world?

He made me a mix AGES ago! And well, when i finally got one done, the laptop crashed! Needless to say, i've been at great pains to ake another. I have made about 7 since ten. The beats don't mesh as well. The words don't say it all. One was a whole hour long and still didn't say what i wanted to.
I told myself that i'd finally get it done today then there was no electricity. And now i'm back to where i was.

Really. It would be MUCH easier to just write him a love letter.
This is sooooo much stress! Unneccesary stress.
Why can't i get it right?
I'll limit myself to 15 tracks that i love and leave it at that.
Then maybe i can get him his reply sooner rather than later!

Yours sincerely stressed out.
O.Cinna

overly sensitive

Isn't it amazing that when you get overly sensitive it quickly borders on insecure?
Well that's how i feel.
I never used to make an effort and my standards were really high.
But now i'm making an effort and i feel like i'm the only one. So i'm not going to make an effort anymore.
Whatever happens will happen.
My spirit is weak and tired.

If my memory serves me right

If my memory serves me right is such an ingenious title :)

I promised my friend that i would write something about getting to the point where i'm dating this gorgeous man.

How did we manage to get to where we are.

Maya Angelou has a famous quote that "Love is like a virus. It can happen to anybody at anytime."

That actually sums it all up.


The end.


Lol! So years back.
Almost 3yrs ago, i was a babbler. (yes, i have this funny habit of inventing words as i go along. Leah says that half the time she doesn't know what i'm saying! :) lol! Case in point Wabbling which is Babbling on paper, paper here being any material upon which one can make inscriptions :)


Back to babbles. So i'm telling this young man how one can never have too much chocolate on a random day, in a random month.

And then, it happened. Chocolates. More choclate that i could imagine. On my birthday. How??? How did he know my birthdate? i probably told him, sometimes i can be shady like that :) shady-cool is what! Anyhow,..so i left the exams room after my business studies mock to find my classmates all gigly and isht. i had recieved a nice SHIPMENT of enough choclate to keep my happy for at least 3 weeks!

From whom?


Ha! I was so shocked, i carried my things out of class and went straight to the car, with the help of Ciku. Thank God the driver was waiting. I couldn't bear the questions.


I was confused. Why would my friend send me all those chocolates? And as in, he actually listens to all i say when i babble?? Ai. too much!


So what was protocal? Did i call him, text him thank you? I don't even remember!


And his birthday was 30days later and that killed me. I didn't know what this meant. Were we getting each other gifts now?

Not to mention M, my love interest at the time was making phonecalls to the 254 every 3-4hrs from New-York, you wonder where tax payers money goes? He was missing school to go traveling with his dad a cabinet minister.

That is a story for another day and it's one filled with a lot of laughs.and depressed moments. Again, for another day :)


Fast forward to a conversation toward the end of the year, where we were defining each others future husbands :) yes girls do that :) at least these girls did.

She said "Mitch will be spoilt. She's not going to marry just anyone, because even when she dates just anyone, he turns out to be a mover and shaker."

Thank you for your prophecy which has turned out to be a great blessing.

All the men in my life have been doing great things with their lives. Not neccesarily conforming to societies standards but brilliant minds.


This post is however about one man and it wouldn't be right to talk about all those other friends of mine. For another post. Another day.


So Mr. Main man and i didn't really talk after that, and suddenly late last year we get back to communication and we talk okay, a little bit.

And then the frequency increased this year. We were now doing random dates every other week, that turned into every week.

My girls started to say, if they needed to find me, i'd probably be with Mr. Main man.

And then i started to fall. Which does take a lot of effort, since i can be pretty oblivious.

Boys have very bad timing.

So around this time, on the way from one of our "dates" he says that girls have this thing where they thing that just because they hang out alot the guy is interested.

WHAT???? EXCUSE ME????? Hello!!!!!

WHAT ARE WE????


So if you need any proof that i was at the time a bongo lala, and starting to be smitten, i said nothing :) I simply smiled at myself and took in a deep breathe and let it go. All of it.


The dates continued and well, now that his stand had been clearly stated, it was strictly platonic. Nothing further passed my mind. We'd hang out and just talk and in the mean time, i started to date again. I was by around March this year officially out of my relationship for a year and well, i wouldn't object to discovering someone new :)


Besides i now missed being kissed, holding hands and fooling around. I missed having someone to miss a little more and someone to bully and open my heart to. Someone to cry over, and someone to fuss over.


I've always fussed over my friends but this was different. I missed dreaming of the future with someone whose future i wanted to be a part of as more than just his friend,...

a willing

#nowplaying Never gonna be alone courtesy of the band Nickelback :)
I'm deep in the trongs of getting this mix done for B and well, it has been quite a journey.
I few weeks ago i was probably incapable of doing this. There are suddenly so many options of things to say, and in my journey, i've discovered that there's never really an inbetween.
If after 4 months together, officially that is, he makes my heart skip a beat, and the thought of him brings a smile to my face and a giggle escapes my lips,. that's just how it is. And the songs will tell me that it's love.
but really what is love?

My highschool teacher used a lesson that i have never fogotten.

"Love is a willing, it's not a feeling."

You can't possibly feel that you love someone. There is a combination of emotions however that helps you make the decision to love somebody.
The tingle in your feet. The butterflies in your stomach. The little things.

When i was younger, i never used the word love unless i meant it. Unless i meant that i felt that love for you in my heart. Lol! my love was all about feeling.
That's not neccesarily a bad thing. It actually isn't.

"When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things."
                                                      -1 Corinthians 13:11

But now i'm older. And even when someone who i have chosen to love makes me angry, i love them anyway.
It's never on a whim.
Of course it does help when the love comes with good feelings but either way, choosing to love someone despite all that, gives me a sense of liberation.

Who is this person???

Of late i've been thinking a lot about who i am and who i was and what direction my life is taking.
I found that it really is quite sad how i've lost touch with myself. Unfortunately, the traditional ways i've used to find myself routine won't cut it this time.
Sleep, pampering and lots of exercise and some yoga breathing exercises just won't cut it.
I need something new.

Change isn't neccesarily a bad thing, problem is i'm not quite sure i'm changing into something beautiful.

The boyfriend says i've changed. Which is true. No matter how hard i try not to compare myself with him versus myself with my ex, i think i'm a MUCH more tolerable girlfriend now. Pleasant even. I'm calm and i don't have too much drama about me.
That's actually really a relief because boyfriend is that guy who takes charge of situations.
I take charge of so many other spheres of my life, i like to be able to kick back and have himtake charge sometimes, which has deteriorated to most of the time.

Did i mention with the calmer me, came the more rare and busier me?
Well, between class rep duties and school, and being the resident good daughter, i have barely anytime left for me, let alone b and then there's the girls.

I was recently accousted, in what seemed like an intervention. i rarely answer my phone and when i do, i'm more passive in the conversation. I respond to texts DAYS later and do i even need to tell u what happens to inboxes?

In the last month i have missed approximately 5 dates. Not because i had to cancel, but simply because i forgot. And isitoshe, there are more that i have cancelled :(

B has resorted to coming to Parkie to spend time with me in between classes and some get aways :)
I must say that i have some pretty amazing people in my life. When i'm swamped they know how to rally.
They have done the calling. Done the inboxing. Done the texting. I still get my weekly blessings spoken into my life and i see B every opportunity i get.

This holiday really is set to be refreshing. A lot of sleeping shall be done! And catching up with my girls and Mr. Man.

i have to sign out now because i have this unbearable pain in the left side of my abdomen.
oh my gawshHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

o.c

confused

So ati i've changed my blogs name and domain like 3 times today only.
But i'm glad i have this one now, and hopefully that means i'll stick to it :)
It is after all, what i wanted from the very beginning :)

Of Gender equality stuff.

Sometimes it amazes me how little people know or understand the concept of gender equality. It's suche a pity that gender studies have not been included anywhere in the official Kenyan curiculum.
Now before you start to roll your eyes and think that you know what i'm going to say, i urge you to hold your horses if only for a while.

Gender has nothing to do with sex.
Gender actually refers to the role that men and women have been allocated within the sosciety, while sex is determined by biology, i.e. as i read it recently, what is contained in your underpants.

Gender equality.
When we speak about gender equality we are actually simply saying that, both the roles of men and women within the society need to be recognised as equally important in their own right. A simple example. That housework be recognised as a real job, just like going to the office to do a white collar job or even going to work with your hands as a juakali artisan or artist does.

Women and men can never compete with each other on an equal footing. It's a fact. Our biology does determine not what we can do, but what we can do better.
This is the most important aspect to grasp, because if women try to compete with men at who can be a better man, our achievements will definately pale in comparison. Not because we are less, but because we are better at something else.

This goes beyond the issue of gender to even ordinary duties. If I as an individual compete with someone whos strength is my weakness, i will without a doubt not do as well as they will.

It's a glorious thing to be a woman, both biologically and with regard to my gender.
And being a home-maker does not, under any cicumstances make me less of a professional or a career woman. It simply means that i reason differently, from a man as well as from my fellow women.

It really is about time, we took gender studies seriously so as to stop the flow of ignorant conversation going around.

Reflections

Exam season came and went. I'm really glad. Although i feel more relieved than free. Maybe that has a great deal to do with the fact that this sem was really rushed and i hear it doesn't get easier. How depressing is that!
Anyhow,.i feel like we've barely spoken during this two week period and yes there is a lot to say and such.

First my first paper, Evidence 2 sucked some serious balls. i hated it. Absolutely. It wasn't quite a great start for thee exam period but the others,..priceless :)

Someday during my exams this week. must have been before Civil Procedure, B and his buddy showed up 30minutes to the paper. that was quite something. The one day we were histerical they showed up. It took me a while to settle down before i actually started to do the paper. Note to self: DO NOT do that again!
STill the paper was very do-able. All other 4 papers were very do-able :)

Fast forward to Thursday evening right after my criminal procedure exam. Which i had all the questions to as revision questions from class. The man actually gave us the paper in our notes. Telling us what he would bring in each topic and such.
It's too bad i forgot to read one which turned out to be the COMPULSORY question!!
Still i answered it ass best i could. At least i'll get 15 out of 30 in that question.

Moving on,..football.
I cannot even kick a ball so at least i did that. It was so much fun,..We ran around screaming laughing until we cried. It's a good thing i got to do that that day.
So i had told Mama Mark that i would be going and despite the fact that she furad for me, i parked her car, gave her the keys and then left. She delayed me anyway!

The trip to kabete was an interesting one.

The gurls had some interesting perspectives. Apparently Ushers songs make young ladies want
 to get down ;) so ,..we even had a couple of samples.

This exam period resulted in me letting my hair down. Like really down.
I hang out with people i was formally to high and mighty to, simply because the company i kept allowed me to believe that i was beeter than others because they lived their lives differently.

So that evening was fun, we danced and ish. Brea had a sip of some guys drink and well,..lets just say it may not have been what she thought it was :)

Friday!!
Ms. J.A was to give us a briefing on our legal practice at 3 but due to African timing it began at almost $ :(
I was hungry. I had had breakfast with Kaggz at home after what seemed like a 5km walk :) hehehe,..so what if it wasn't a jog? It could've been!

Friday night rocked. That is all :)
The South Americans growing that fruit that matures and is ready for plucking after 10yrs are doing great great things. I am grateful :::) LOL!


Many more things happening but i've become LAZY already. I have so much to say but so little wil and energy.
And ION CHAPATIS!!! Yippeee!!!

Hunger. I'm out
xoxo
Cinna

Can i really be me

It's funny. I always wanted to blog so i could have an outlet to reveal my inner most thoughts. The more i blog, the less honest i can be.
The more I blog, the less i can reveal what i really think about people, and situations. I'm thinking of my agendas for 2011 and i think 2011, will have the motto all or nothing. Brutal honesty or silence.
In a way it's sort of like i'd rather be silent than a hypocrite.

It's not going to be easy, but how i see it is that, practice makes perfect?

Okay then,..ready,...set,...truth!

that you do this.

I hate that you do this.
That every time he builds himself up, you tear him down.
I hate that you hold so much power over him by virtue of your position and yet you only use it to destroy.

The Bible say that all those who curse shall be cursed themselves, and it really is a damn shame if that were to happen because it really would be all on you.

I listened to her tell me all about how when she told you that you probably shouldn't speak to him like that you told her that it was none of her business.

And i worry. I worry that if you continue to batter his spirit one day it will break. And when it does, what shall i be left with?
You may think that it's a selfish way of looking at things but lets be realistic here. What happens when you can no longer bring him down because there's nothing left to bring down?
hey say
Will it make your life that much special if his life is that much worse?

Think about it.
His success is your success and his failure is yours.
Therefore we need to be building up and not tearing down the ones we claim to love simply because we have an unmistakable relation.

You're a bully, that's what you are. One who can only make themselves feel better by sitting on someone else.
But darling, you best check yourself before you wreck yourself. After all, you know what they say,.. a candle loses nothing by lighting another.

Making it work

So this week has been quite eye opening.
It started off on a very weird note, and the last two days have had me waking up to a shot of Red Label for breakfast. First because i love the smell and it's really sweet :) and plus it's whisky :)

I've spent most of my nights awake and it's set to be that kind of week next-week.
Yesterday B and Zoe met up. They had a prolonged lunch and reports have it that they had a pretty good time :)
And the reviews! Everytime one of my girls has an encounter with B i get an account of what they think. And i've gotten nothing but raev reviews :)
Not that i need them. B is a fantastic guy and he really is good to me, and i love him more everyday. His spirit is gentle and calm and he's good to me.

Still, i don't think any girl gets tired of hearing what a gem her man is especially when he's one both in public and behind closed doors :) so to speak.

Today i had a really funny encounter. This dude called Chege thought he'd suggest that i be his clande in Nai. Yani. He suggested that we could just be random lays for each other. HA!
So he asked me first if i was faithful to my boyfriend. If we were in an open relationship or if we just dogged each other. The look on his face was priceless when i told him that we're not dogging each other and that's not how we roll. He asked me for my number and well i was soooo not feeling him i told him i'd get it somehow :) before swiftly walking away.

Usually i'd find one of my gurls and tell them all about this dude and how appaled i was or whatever, but suddenly these incidents don't phase me. I simply walked away from it like i'd walk away from the loo after peeing. Do what i need to do and then leave. The urge to go pee will eventually come my way again and well, no matter how many times it comes along, it's never news.

Speaking of the literal peeing now,..I've been doing alot of that of late. I should get checked, yes?
Maybe it's from all the sugar i've been getting from B ;) hehehehe,..

later babe!

xoxo
      Cinnamon

What a day!

Today i needed a pick me up. Zoe went to tea-coffee with me. It helped that i had someone to talk to.
I needed that. Someone i could be towtally honest with about how i feel about everything. I threw caution to the wind and at the risk of having all the strong things i said repeated i opened up my heart.

I told her about how frustrated i was and how scared i am. It helps to have a great friend who knows just when to listen with a smile :) *sigh*
She made her mother wait for us. Which was a big deal. She didn't complain. She was calm and very sheepishly after almost an hour told me upon my inquiry that her mother had been waiting.

I spoke to Emmu, she says that she and Ren are fasting for their brothers exams. I don't feel like doing the same thing.
Before you judge me, you must live in my shoes and have been frustrated to the point where you don't care.
Still, i'll ask for the grace to be kind and fulfill my weeks goals.

Still getting grief about my avatar and profile picture from Kiki, she says it's a bit much. maybe it is. Honestly it makes me cringe a little bit but it must be done.

Maybe i'm hoping that from this small show i shall gather enough confidence to be me and do what's good in my soul.

*sigh* we'll see.

Mama says i look like crap,..okay not in those words, but yeah that i really look tired and stressed.
She says tonight i should just go to bed and relax. Get up tommorrow and start anew!

 Point 102 in "The Way" on page 48 says
"Your mind is sluggish and wont work: you try to collect your thoughts in God's presence, but it's useless: there's a complete blank.
Don't try to force yourself, and don't worry. Look: such moments are for your heart."

I'm beat and i don't feel like being lovey with B. I have a lot on my mind and he does too. Not the same thing, different things.
I feel like right now i am living the literal meaning of "Love is a willing, not a feeling" as per the gospel of Ms. A.
That's what's love's about anyway, right?

Goodnight my sweet. One day is done. Only 6 more to go.

Love u mucho!
                      Cinnamon.
                       xoxo.

what a week! :)

So this past week has been a fantastic week.
And it was an equally fantastic weekend to cap it all off.

On Saturday i went to the Kenya-Uganda match at the Nyayo National Stadium!!!
That was a fantastic experience :) I enjoyed every single minute of it! The long queues the hoardes of people. *sigh* i would recommend the experience.
We walked back to town in the dark. Now that i think about it, it had great romantic potential! :) hihihihi..
oh well,.it was fun.
Emmu, Angie and i met up with a couple of friends from school after the match and had my first proper meal of the day :)
The fear of toilets kept me from using the public toilets at the stadium. Never mind that one can usually smell public toilets from far off :(

Anyhow,..so
Sunday came around and i headed out to Chess Sunday courtesy of B. That was fun, i invited Emmu since we were in her neighbourhood.
We were taught how to play chess and such.
We had a good laugh and expanded our friendship circle.

When i arrived Martyn and Shoo cam to get me, and that was interesting in itself. I had hardly driven when Shoo told me to be careful! LOL! that was funny. How bad could things get when i was driving 50mtrs away?
Anyhow so the back door, on the drivers side is squeeky so i need to remember to oil the hinges.

Where was i?
Oh yes.  Chess Sunday :)

Apparently i no longer have an identity. not that I mind much. Ms. Jb is who i become and i'm okay with that, for now :) I'll remember to tell you in case i get an epiphany and the sudden need to distance myself arises :)
The need to be recognised as an individual in my own right :) not that i'm not...arrgh. Long story.

Anyhow,..yeah,..many things,..Oh and Kelly called while i was chess and told me all about how a chimp mauled a woman and therefore i need to NEVER feed the wild monkeys again :) She really does care :)
truth is i found it kinda funny but i'm sure if i was watching it live i wouldn't.
God forgive my dark sense of humour!

I'm thinking of starting my list of 2010 blessings afresh. Which is kinda cool :)

In preparation of the photo gallery.

This mix cd business is starting to drive me crazy and kinda depress me :(
oh well,..maybe i'll take Iks advice and do something different :)
This was supposed to be fun!!

I feel like the visitors on the red bus are on their way even though i'm sure they just left! But the signs on my face tell a different tale.

Oh well,..

*sigh* Lord HELP ME through this week. I don't have the strength to do this alone. Please.

After all You did promise to see me through and always be there to listen and willing to help.
The shortest distance is after all between my knees and the floor.

Oh and this week i sent out blessings for the week. I didn't send them all though.

Just to B, because i have a feeling we'll need it this week and Emmu because she seemed a little out of it.

Resolution for the week.
To be a great friend. The kind of friend and "girlfriend" and daughter and sister i need.
Do unto others,..

I can hear the chimes in the garden as the breeze sweeps quickly through them and the sun is oout and beautiful.
I'm off to practise some breathing exercises :)
*joy*

Later sweetie,

Love,
        Cinna.
xoxo

...nothing much to say,..

The air smells fresher,.
The sun is brighter,..
The smile is wider,..
The heart beats calmer,..
The skin is clearer,..
The eyes are brighter,..
The touch softer,..
The kiss deeper and sweeter,..
The beats louder,..
stronger,..

The joy greater,..
The pain greater when i have to pull away.

If i could, i would be by his side every minute of everyday.
Wake up every morning next to him and go to bed in his arms every night.

If i could,
I'd bring him breakfast in bed, just so he wouldn't have to move and i could keep him with me longer.

If i could,
I'd let him kiss me for all the minutes in the world he desires :)

If i could,..
I'd lie on his chest and listen to and feel is heart beat,.as fast as it always does when he's around me :)
#vanity :)

*sigh*
if i could :)

Starry eyed girl :)

This week i've had a spring in my step,..heart in my laughter,..joy in my eyes,.. and a glow i've heard :)

Not that i disagree,.:)

Every morning i'm glad that i wake up with B on my mind and i have someone to thank God for in that regard.

This was dare week.
Basically, because we have such varied timetables, we had to meet everyday this week.
Needless to say we didn't do to badly,..twice in 4 days :)
That's more than it usually is :)

Today we were supposed to double. With L and Al. We need couple friends. Not really, but i think it would be cool to have a couple to hang out with occasionally.
And i knew when i found all that conspiracy material on Al's laptop that we had found them:)
And then this morning,..actually just now,..it occured to me that both B and Al's dad's work n the same capacity in different parts of the country though.

Sooo,..anyhow,...Al's dad showed and Al is consequently disposed for the afternoon.
L is sad about it.
She was looking forward to this. but she says we should go ice-skating next week.
I'll float that idea to B and see what he thinks?
I think the shooting range would be MUCH cooler but then again,..that's just me :)

Oh yeah,..i've lost direction-ish.

So,..where was i?
Talking about B!
B is such a sweetie, yesterday he suprised me,..and no i was not expecting it :)
He came to school and brought me cake :)
More like he brought "water" and cake :)

We had fun.
I had fun.
Of late all i want to do is spend all my time with him.

He's so very thoughtful and sweet,..*sigh*
I'm not finishing my thoughts, am i?

I'm falling in love.
I know you're probably wondering huh?

I say i'm falling in love because, even though i love B, and when we hooked up we were on a high from the funeral,..(and yes i know how that sounds!)
it never really settled.
But now,..it's settled and comfortable.
Not comfortable in a boring kind of way,..but in a my heart longs for him all the time kind of way :)

It's not really a scary place to be because I've never been the type to be afraid to fall deeply and with all my heart, to give myself towtally to something.
I thought it would be scarier. Especially because i do over-think things sometimes,..

ANyway,...FAST FOWARD to now.
I'm falling in love and it feels great!

I love the tingle in my feet.
The butterflies in my stomach.
The constant smile and now that the dimples are here mostly permanently :)

*joy*

How they are

I'm not very good at picking titles. No actually i am! (positive thinking :)

This is basically about how things are.
So,.now,..what was i saying,..oh yes.
And did i mention that i have the short term memory of a,..(AGAIN! POSITIVE THJINKING!)
You attract what you think!

So i've got about 20 minutes before i head to the library to study for about an hour and fill in some notes then head to class.
Today i was late because among other things i let Koco out.
What a fool i was to think that that dog has a single shred of decency!
Leason learnt: In the quest to give your child or pet confidence and freedom, do not forget that the most important ingredient is discipline!
I laid off teaching Koco strict discipline in a bid to get him to make his own decisions that i hoped i would be happy with?
HA! Tough luck.
Turns out, he doesn't know what i want because i never instilled the discipline in him early enough!
Anyhow,.. so i've learnt that i must be strict disciplinarian with young ones so that they may learn to be respectful and conform to the norms of decency, not just be confident!

Anyhow, in my depression, also because my mother today told me that the jacket i want is too expencive and she'd rather i found something else that i love, i sat in the kitchen talking to Annie the whole morning.

Annie is our househelp who most times cannot her when you call her, sleep walks like a drunkard, has decided that the staple food for this household is Ugali and nothing but ugali so help her God.

She always has such weird but interesting stories and today's morning session was as full of comic relief as they always are.

Anyhow, by the time i checked the time on the alarm monitor in the kitchen, it was already 8.20am and i was going to be inevitably late for my 9am lecture on property law.

Fast forward to about 11.50am when the lecturer sought to relieve us from our agony and release us for the day. To be continued tommorrow.

Anyhow,..i'm thinking that should I find out how this pages thing works,..and i have seen it here too, lets just hope it doesn't also confuse me,.i should do one on the "Chronicles of Class Rep"...that should be interesting.

Lately it seems i'm always busy.
It's strange that i'm all of a sudden not too busy to make the effort to blog :)
I'm cultivating a habit. After all, you know what they say,..all great people keep a journal. And well,..i plan to be great so i shall keep my blog which is sort of a diary for my thoughts,..yes?

Oh well,..
it's now 12.41, and i have 4 minutes to post this and head to the library,..

so,..i'll sign off...

Ciao Bella!
Adios muchachos! (WTF! does that mean anyway???)
You'd thik i'd know seeing as i have a 1st class pass in my Spanish level 1 right? wrong!

oh and yesterday i spent the day with my beau! Okay like an hour,..but it was sooooooo worth it!
I really do miss him, most minutes of everyday!
but i promised to keep focused on my books so,..i really should get going!
I promise to blog all about that later?:)

Later babe!

xoxo
       Cinnamon :*

Monkey Business :)

So,..i didnt mean it literally...

i'm not even really sure what monkey business means!!

This is a recent photo taken at Kellys house. It was taken by my Nokia E-series (but do i say).

I fed this monkey the banana in the car i drive( i refrain from calling it my car) :)

Kelly was so irritated :) but i wanted to see it closer :)

So,.. this post had a direction,.hmm,.. gawsh. Okay. I forget.

I might as well publish this anyway especially because my drafts are starting to out number my actual posts!

Have a monkey business free day!! :*

xoxo

Cinnamon.

Lecture

So today, as i sat through my Evidence 2 lecture, to which the lecturer was late, (fifteen minutes and his office called to excuse him! Some people can be sooo courteous!), where was i?
Oh yes.
I sat in that lecture and i had quite a few thought run through my mind.
If i wasn't in Law school and had the opportunity to do anything in the entire world, what would it be?

That brings me to my tragedy.
I'd rather be in law school 600 times over.
This is what i was put here on this earth to do!
To influence systems and policy by learning the ins and outs of the legal profession.


Which brings me to my point.
i'm putting less than enough effort into my school work and yet this is my calling.
My divine purpose.


There's nothing else i'm quite as sure of other than my calling to be an officer of the law.


So back to my evidence lecture.
Here was this learned gentleman emphasizing the importance of Character evidence.
If you question the character of the plaintiff or complainant as the accused you open up your character to scrutiny.
And well, because character is who a person is, one can adduce evidence to prove that you're of bad character by adducing evidence of any character flaw.
Simple. Yes?
Wait until you see the questions!


Anyway... i'm now resolved to put more effort in my school work.
Today is 1st October. Exams begin on the 25th of this month.
All the effort i put in MUST pay off.


No longer lukewarm, but brilliant.
No longer okay, with okay grades.
If i put in my all, i shall surely be rewarded.


How appropriate is this new resolution with the month of the Holy Rosary?


If God is for us, who can be against us?


Yours hopefully,
                        Cinnamon :)

Consistency :)

The trick to writing is consistency.
Not that you should write everyday but that you write often :)
I'm glad i still have lots of steam left over from yesterday so i can still say stuff :)

Today i'm meeting Kiki.
I'm excited because she's so chilled out.
She's that friend that loves to laugh and stuff and always look at the bright side of life :)
I've been very blessed in that regard because Kelly is just like that.
it really does maze me that her first instinct when i tell her about something that's bugging me is to laugh at me.

But I'm grateful that i have someone to laugh for me when i feel that i can't :)

So,.. today we have a few things to consider doing.
Kiki has been working during her holiday and yesterday was her last day at work so this is her starting her brief holiday before school opens.

we have a few options for the day,..but high on the list is The Nairobi Show :)
yes. I really want to go.
I've never been,..okay that i can remember and who better than Kiki who's always up for anything to go with?
I really have missed this BFF of mine!
oh well,..
Class begins in about 2 minutes and Mr. Mbobu is NEVER late!


Ttyl sweetie!
Mwah!

xoxo
      Cinnamon :)

giving it all you've got :)

I got some advice from a friend of mine a while back and i didn't think i'd have the time nor the opportunity to give this advice to someone else.
The thing about relationships is that getting into one, for me has always been the hardest part.

I descibed it once to a friend of mine as jumping off a cliff blind folded, while holding the hand of someone you'd like to survive and live to tell the tale with.

The only thing about it is,..once you land in the water, a metaphor for the world, there are so many forces that push against you. Sometimes you'll be pulled closer together, other times,..further apart.
The only thing to remember is to never let go of the otherr persons hand.
To love them enough for the both of you when he is weak, because he will do the same for you.

Here i was, getting into a relationship that seemed perfect, with the kind of guy that many only dream of. My TW :) Tender warrior as my girlfriends have baptised "The One".
I'm not saying that B is the one. Not even that he's not.
Just that i'm happy where i am and may Gods' will be done.

So, here i was with Tammy. She was telling me all about Tom and how she has no idea why she's in the relationship and how she's checked out of it mentally.

Sitting with her, reminds me of my days with Kelly. Hours spent on the phone, with me telling her i need to get out and with her telling me that i need to grow a pair.

Things only stop working when you stop putting effort into them.
She's always telling me to give it 110% because relationships take work.
Work.
Hmm,.. these conversations are starting to sound strangely reversed.
usually i'm the one giving advice!

Now, i'm listening to Tammy and she sounds so irrational. My goodness. Is that what i sound like as well sometimes?
What in Heavens name came over her?

I didn't know what to say to her.
i didn't have the words.

All i could say is to give it all you've got and all things will work for the good of those who trust in Him.
Giving up is way harder than forgiving.

*sigh*
I wabble.


Love,
        Cinnamon.

Do you love me?

So i've been gathering some tracks of late.
I'm making Ben a mix cd in response to the one he made me :)
It was a really sweet and original idea, and i'm really blessed to have such a thoughtful young man in my life :).

Back to the gathering of tracks,..:)
So,..turns out there are a million and one things i would like to say and this seemingly is the best outlet for the flow of these creative juices but I'm still trying to figure out how to do this.

I'd love to share all the cool ideas i have but then again, this is at the risk of him seeing it too early so,..:) for now i shall keep it a secret.
Still, i really hope he likes whatever i come up with when i'm finally done :)

Serious blogger :)

hehehe...
So,..Ben has been telling me that i should start blogging and well i did try.
I had a whole blog and everything but somehow i must have started with the wrong program because my goodness did wordpress lose me! WHAT!
Pages and things.
But Blogger seems simple enough. i hope it actually is :)
i like that i's bright and orange and white and things :)

Let's see if the computer can be my new notebook :)

Oh well. it's but the beginning.

This blog may not have many deep things, because i don't always have something profound to say, even though i can be a critical thinker.
I'm enjoying just being me for now so,..let's see how it goes,..

Ready, Set,...Blog? :)