It's May already. I can hardly believe it.
The world doesn't stop for you to catch up so you've just got to run as fast as you can to catch up after you've had some time off.
Lately, putting my thoughts on paper seems a little too much for me. I'm enjoying just having things in my head.
It's actually quite relieving that since I decided not to use my best friends as crutches, i deal with a lot of my issues by myself which has resulted in a much stronger me.
I must admit though that some of the things that i have done that should seem ridiculous to me still seem quite sane and like very logical things to have done. But that was then and this is now.
This morning i watched the rain pound on the road as i drove to school. it had variations in it's intensity moving from a light drizzle to intense downpour, but suddenly it stopped and out struggling through the clouds came a little ray of sunshine. The weather had changed in what seemed like a split second and the leaves of the trees all around began to glisten.
They'd seemed overwhelmed by the rain falling steadily from the heavens at what seemed to me to be an alarming rate. But now, the sun was peeking through the clouds and the rain shone on them like ideal diamonds against a soft green pillow.
The driver behind me was patient. maybe too patient. maybe he too was in own world thinking about the beauty of our surroundings. The driver behind him however was not as patient. Before i could recollect my thoughts he was already paces ahead of me, an action i can relate to. Remember i'm not too patient :)
So off i was, back trodding through this life of mine.
But just then i had an epiphany.
Now epiphanies are quite common on this side of the tracks but none as clear as this one.
Were it not for the rain, the forest wouldn't be as beautiful as it is.
A former classmate told me once that to see the beauty of gold it must be run through the fire.
To call the fire hot would definately be an understatement! There are some substances that leave gold easily but others don't rise to the surface so easily and therefore we must definately suffer great discomfort in letting them go.
Bottom line, if you don't want to die a mixed metal, you'll go through *h** but the rewards are DEFINATELY worth it!
And that's the gift of faith :)
“So that the proving of your faith, much more precious than of gold which perishes though it is proved by fire, may be found unto praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ.” (1 Peter 1:7)
All my love.
xoxo
Cinnamon :)
