Who is this person???

Of late i've been thinking a lot about who i am and who i was and what direction my life is taking.
I found that it really is quite sad how i've lost touch with myself. Unfortunately, the traditional ways i've used to find myself routine won't cut it this time.
Sleep, pampering and lots of exercise and some yoga breathing exercises just won't cut it.
I need something new.

Change isn't neccesarily a bad thing, problem is i'm not quite sure i'm changing into something beautiful.

The boyfriend says i've changed. Which is true. No matter how hard i try not to compare myself with him versus myself with my ex, i think i'm a MUCH more tolerable girlfriend now. Pleasant even. I'm calm and i don't have too much drama about me.
That's actually really a relief because boyfriend is that guy who takes charge of situations.
I take charge of so many other spheres of my life, i like to be able to kick back and have himtake charge sometimes, which has deteriorated to most of the time.

Did i mention with the calmer me, came the more rare and busier me?
Well, between class rep duties and school, and being the resident good daughter, i have barely anytime left for me, let alone b and then there's the girls.

I was recently accousted, in what seemed like an intervention. i rarely answer my phone and when i do, i'm more passive in the conversation. I respond to texts DAYS later and do i even need to tell u what happens to inboxes?

In the last month i have missed approximately 5 dates. Not because i had to cancel, but simply because i forgot. And isitoshe, there are more that i have cancelled :(

B has resorted to coming to Parkie to spend time with me in between classes and some get aways :)
I must say that i have some pretty amazing people in my life. When i'm swamped they know how to rally.
They have done the calling. Done the inboxing. Done the texting. I still get my weekly blessings spoken into my life and i see B every opportunity i get.

This holiday really is set to be refreshing. A lot of sleeping shall be done! And catching up with my girls and Mr. Man.

i have to sign out now because i have this unbearable pain in the left side of my abdomen.
oh my gawshHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

o.c