a willing

#nowplaying Never gonna be alone courtesy of the band Nickelback :)
I'm deep in the trongs of getting this mix done for B and well, it has been quite a journey.
I few weeks ago i was probably incapable of doing this. There are suddenly so many options of things to say, and in my journey, i've discovered that there's never really an inbetween.
If after 4 months together, officially that is, he makes my heart skip a beat, and the thought of him brings a smile to my face and a giggle escapes my lips,. that's just how it is. And the songs will tell me that it's love.
but really what is love?

My highschool teacher used a lesson that i have never fogotten.

"Love is a willing, it's not a feeling."

You can't possibly feel that you love someone. There is a combination of emotions however that helps you make the decision to love somebody.
The tingle in your feet. The butterflies in your stomach. The little things.

When i was younger, i never used the word love unless i meant it. Unless i meant that i felt that love for you in my heart. Lol! my love was all about feeling.
That's not neccesarily a bad thing. It actually isn't.

"When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things."
                                                      -1 Corinthians 13:11

But now i'm older. And even when someone who i have chosen to love makes me angry, i love them anyway.
It's never on a whim.
Of course it does help when the love comes with good feelings but either way, choosing to love someone despite all that, gives me a sense of liberation.