Man is inately bad

I have high expectations of people. It's who i am.

I judge and i have high expectations.

Mama says i can't be blamed for it. I am an eagle, and the problem may be that i expect too much from chicken.
I'm a wanna be over-achiever. I love to read. And i love to hang out with my friends. I love my family. I love telling retarded jokes, and laughing with mum until our eyes tear.

I love to call up my best friend when i'm feeling low or embarrased or excited. Scream, cry, laugh, walk the dog, yell.

                                                                So what if i change my mind a million times in a day.

                                                                       The best thing about me is that i have NO formula.

i never once believed what our Evidence lecturer told us.
                       Character is not that which is deduced from events, but the character of a person is the general impression that the community around the person has of the person.

i am the perfect case study. No one event can give one a total impression of my true character.

Back to my topic at hand :)

After i was told that i expect too much from people, i consulted mother dearest. She could not for the life of her understand why i would think that.
But when i explained it to her, that it meant that i basically expect peoples inate nature to be good, she said that people were not like that. And if i expected that i would be dearly disappointed, i was deeply troubled. Which brings me to this blog :)

If people are inately bad, what does that mean for the hope i have in humanity?
Should i not expect my boyfriend to be a gentleman with me? That he should cheat, be disrespectful, loving and at the very least courteous?
Should i expect my best friend to share all my secrets with the world and run away from me when i'm most vulnerable?
Should i expect the only human being pre-disposed to love me,my mother, to abandon me?


Here's the thing.
I don't expect too much from people.

I expect my friends to be loyal.

I expect my boyfriend to be courteous and encouraging and respectful and loving and driven and ambitious.

I expect my mother to always have my best interests at heart.

I expect a class representative to be an efficient and dilligent servant.

I expect to go to school and attend all classes when scheduled.

I expect to have people i have entrusted with my property to respect it.

I expect only what i give. And if i cannot give it. I do not expect it of anyone.
That definately doesn't mean that i am perfect! FAR from it!
But i apologize if i fail in any aspect.

Because despite whatever i may be feeling, i'm inately pre-disposed to be good. I have human nature but i'm made in God's own image. Not just that i have a soul but that because He is good, i am pre-disposed to do good.

O well. Hali ya maisha, right?
But that doesn't mean i'm going to lower my expectations of chicken.. it simply means i'm going to need a turn over of people i expect things of.
Besides, if i suspected u were a chicken, i'd never expect more of you. It was always just a show of my faith in your abilities.