I love everything about it. The video and even the song itself.
There's something about that level of desperation and vulnerability in a relationship that i admire.
OBVIOUSLY the gentleman feels FAR from the same! LOL! She released bloodhoods on a wounded man in a wheelchair! HELLO! Can u really blame him?? :)
Yesterday was a struggle getting to bed.
It's one of those things you can't really explain. Like going to bed makes all this real. I wasn't having a hard day. I really wasn't. I just couldn't bring myself to sleep!
I need to compile a break up survival kit. Although what i find is that it's rarely what i expect from a relationship. Any relationship really.
What did i do after my last break-up?
I cried my eyes out. I really did. I sat in my room and cried, and it was a month before i could face the world and pick myself up.
Why did T and i break up?
It was what i needed to do. I loved him, he loved me, we were in love, but one day he said something to me that i could never forget.
With my background on abusive relationships, i needed to get up and leave.
We cried about it, and even though i could probably see a future with him,now, not then, i'd rather not.
M says there's fresh fish in the ocean, so to take my boat out to sea.
This time,i don't feel the need for that. I guess i just hit the ground running. Wanting to move on.
Everyone seems to insist that i should cry, but past experience has taught me that that solves nothing. You know what they say,
'No use crying over spilt milk.'
I'm however angry. I guess that's part of the healing process?
I don't want to be angry too long though. I want to just get over this and move on.
If i'm angry too long, i'll get bitter and that's not good for Mr. Next.
I'm actually kinda excited about Mr. Next. Granted the vetting process will b more streneous but we have a new approach.
We here refers to the girls, the guys and i.
I just really want this to be over...This being the designated mourning period.
Like i said, i'm not much of a mourner.
I much rather prefer getting to know what i need to learn from a particular situation and moving on from there.
I however have something up my sleeve, but i'm choosing not to count my chickens before they're hatched.
You will however know all the exciting details as soon as it is prudent for me to disclose them :)
Today is my baby cousins baptism. These twin babies are quite something.
My aunt is a new addition to the family, granted it's been over a year now but still,..she's new. She's young.
And karma's a bitch! And no matter how much i want to let eggs hatch,..i'll say God is very much alive, and as i do unto others, so shall be done to me.
Yours,
Cinnamon
Xoxo.
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